22 May 2012

My Hero… and my Heart 

I will never forget the moment I was standing in the very loud and busy Venetian at 5am on February 19, 2011. I was busy standing there (like the dork I am) with a walkie-talkie, side purse stuffed full of gadgets, pens and any additional work necessities I needed that day along with my phone in the other hand. I was working at the big trade show my company puts on every six months along the East and West Coast of the United States. I was getting all the golfers out to the correct departure destination. I was standing there working away when I kept noticing this man standing there in a 3 piece grey suite sand tie, good-looking shoes and the sleeves of his button up were rolled up to his elbows. He had a huge, beautiful smile and kept looking at me with these dark, chocolate eyes that said everything he was thinking.

I thought to myself, there is no way on earth this lovely creature, hand crafted from God could even have an inkling of interest me. As I was thinking that to myself he walked over to me and stuck his hand out with that damn beautiful smile again and said, “Hi  I am Josh.” I just looked at him, nervous as no get out in my stomach… looked straight about him and said, “Well that is really nice, but I am working.” I went right back to working, my heart racing and feeling the blush creeping up my neck. He just stood there and kept talking to me, asked me, “So what are you doing?” I said, “I am working and trying to get all the golfers out the door for the day and making sure that no one is left behind.” Josh stood there and tried to talk more and impress me by talking korean to some tourist that were walking through the hotel. I just stood there and giggled to myself. After I got the last golfer off, I looked at him and boldly said to him,”Josh, I am going to give you 2 options. 1. you can come and have breakfast with me and continue talking or 2. you can go to your room and sleep off the party that you are apparently still having with yourself?” I don’t think he knew what hit him, he giggled and decided to come and have breakfast with me until my next shift took place. We went to a breakfast restaurant right there in the hotel and I believe we talked for 3 hours.

I told him that I had to get to the next shift and handle the rest of my day. He looked at me and said, “I need a guarantee I will see you again tonight.” I explained to him that we had a huge dinner that I had to be at and would be done around 9/9:30pm but, could try to sneak out earlier if at all possible. Of course that wasn’t good enough for Joshua, so he said, “Follow me real quick, I want to be sure that you will be here tonight.” So, I followed him to the concierge desk and wondered to myself the entire time what the hell I was doing? And was he really meaning all of this? When we got to the concierge desk he looked at me and said, “are you sure that you can be here at the doors at 10:00pm?” I just nodded and probably looking extremely confused at this moment. Then and there he bought 2 Blue Man Group tickets and said, “I am holding on to your ticket, you better be here.” I thought to myself and then looked at him and said, “What if you aren’t here and you have given my ticket away to some drop, dead gorgeous and isn’t half the dork I am?” — all he said was, “you just have to trust me and know that I don’t want anyone else there but you.”

We left each other, I went back to work and couldn’t think of anything else, but Joshua and if he really was going to show up.FINALLY the day is over with and I change to go meet up with Joshua at the Blue Man Group concert area. When I walk around the corner, there he was leaning against the wall looking around, looking a little nervous… then he saw me and my heart melted at that moment and I knew right then and there I was in love with my future husband. Of course, you can’t say that to him… it would look a little creepy just meeting one another. We go into the concert and sit down, I couldn’t even watch the show all that much because I wanted him to grab my hand, tell me I looked good SOMETHING! It was killing me sitting there with him looking so handsome next to me. The show was incredible and I remember that was the first time I heard his amazing laugh that to this day I still hear. After the show we met up with the 2 other buddies he came to Vegas with and had a few drinks before heading out to dance the night away.

Before we went out dancing, I was leaning over telling Joshua something and that was when he leaned in and kissed me the first time… the first time when the entire room went quite and there was no one in there but just the two of us. I remember the look he gave me that told me that he loved me with all his heart and soul at that moment. We danced (and kissed) the night away in Vegas. My heart was overwhelmed with so many emotions that I didn’t know which end was up. All I knew at that very moment was I had my future husband right there in my arms and I had no idea what to do, what to say? Should I run? Stay? Say what I am feeling? All I knew is I wanted Joshua forever in my life.

We saw each other that Sunday night and talked to the sun came up the next morning… then he was heading back to Oklahoma Monday morning. I remember standing there as he came to find me to say goodbye. He hugged me as hard as he could, whispered in my ear, “I really like you… promise me this isn’t the last time I am going to see you.” I told him that it better not be and that I would travel to the ends of he earth to see him… he told me goodbye and then headed out. About 10 minutes after he left me standing there in a rage of different emotions that I never felt before he called me and asked me where I was. I all I said was “standing right where you left me.” Joshua told me to come to the front the hotel… I made my way to where he was and walked outside, I saw him running from the cab he got into, ran to me, grabbed my face and kissed me with such passion that I was sure my heart was going to explode. All he said was, “I needed to kiss you one last time before I leave… I really like you…this isn’t goodbye.”

That was the only sentence I needed to know he had my heart right then and there.

After Vegas Joshua and I kept in touch and flew a thousand hundred miles just to see each other. So many Skype hours, text messages, emails, written notes and more just to tell each other what we meant to one another. I will never forget the phone call that Joshua made to me and told me that he was in love with me and that he wanted me to be his wife… or the time that he gave me a set of dog tags the first time he came to North Carolina and said these are a promise that I am going to marry you… I just have to get your ring. But, that’s another story… Joshua was my best friend, soul mate… someone who understood exactly what I needed to say without even having to say it. He made me who I am today. He is my Hero forever and always.

I hope you’re enjoying the journey of getting to know Joshua and me.

All my love,

B