Cowgirl Grit

I get asked all the time, “How can you actually do this to yourself again? You want to marry another soldier?”… In the beginning I never really knew how to respond. How do I answer those questions without sounding like some love struck guppy that sounds like she is living her life through some romantic movie? How do I explain to someone that the heart falls in love with who it wants… the uniform or occupation does not dictate that?

I won’t lie; the uniform scared me in the beginning. I really had to sit and ask myself the very same questions… especially the other question that haunts me on a daily basis, “what if he has to deploy?” I guess you can blame it on my patriotic soul, blame it on the fact that I bleed red, white and blue or the fact that he looks damn good in his dress blues. But, that really isn’t the case; those are not the very reasons on why I fell in love with a soldier (again). Don’t get me wrong, if Matthew has to deploy than I will support him 100% and pray everyday for his safety along with his brothers in arms.

I didn’t just fall in love with a soldier. I fell in love with a man that got my heart beating again; I fell in love with a man that with one look can melt my entire soul. It just so happens that he is a soldier.

My point is, I have been put through the ringer or the shit hole as some like to put it. I was at a point in my life that I actually gave up not only life, but on love. Why do this to myself again? Why let these walls down and let my world be ripped from me again (possibly)? … Here is why I decided to give love (and a soldier) another chance – I can’t go through life only dreading the worse case scenarios. I couldn’t just sit and expect my world to crumble every time I gave something good a chance. What kind of life is that? Anything can happen at any moment. I have learned to cherish each moment a little longer, let those kisses linger a littler longer, laugh a lot more and look at the good in life instead all the bad things that could possibly happen.

Things are going to happen in life unfortunately that’s why it’s called life. We live it and hope to understand the plans that the big man upstairs has planned for us. But, why waste life when you can live it? Don’t let amazing moments pass you by because you are scared of what “could” happen or fear of a repeat of what you have lived through. I finally understand and that is what I am finally doing…. Living life and have decided to give love a second chance and am in love with a soldier again.

Now, go and Carpe The Hell Out Of Diem You Beautiful Souls ❤

I am grateful for you.
xo,
B

Thank you for giving me a chance my love… Ready for this beautiful & crazy life together.